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well well well. im back again. woah since 1st november. haha. anyways. soo soo sooo many things have been happening in my life nowadays. but the most recent one is. mummy. i seriously dont know how to live without mummy. she's been there for me everytime. okay maybe dad too. but his more of the motivational sort of person. but i'll talk bout that later. so mum fell very very very ill. aww mum :(. i feel so stupid cuz i cant help her. hmph. money is always an issue. wished my brothers are back though :/ i love you mother :)
celebrating Christmas without my brothers this year. dang it :( and this year's Christmas to me is all about togetherness. but what's togetherness without my brothers? :( i wish they were back now. we'd be running around the house chasing each other. going out to town. driving around. haih. :'( man this is so sad.

Kenneth Klassen

Jonathan Klassen

dweeps :'( i miss you guys.

Francis Klassen

Bernard Klassen

brothers :)

then next year im gonna be alone! francis just finish his Spm Exams.. damn it all oh! :'( why must i be the youngest :/ at least i still have J. haha! and some friends. :/ but it aint the same without my brothers. growing up with them isnt easy. but its worth it. i seriously miss them. oh well. Christmas with my parents are well enough. didnt go anywhere this year. im in kk till next year. yay me ? hahaha. i was running through everyones fb today. im so bored. chated with farrah again today. she's funny. i gave her some songs. to brighten her boring day.my day wasnt as cheerful as usual. Stannia sleeping XD naughty naughty. wonder if she's dreaming of me. *think think think* nahh. :p Fenella Ho. kenneth's

Stannia Chong .bernard's

HAHA. man fenella's gonna kill me XD hahahaa. forgive me :p actually im not if they're still together. God dang it. hahaha. XD i hope they are. she's fanni. hehe. i love you guys :) baby,dont marah me :p hee~

Aights then CHEERIOS :D
in Christmas Mood.

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dunno where's the futures heading. thts what thyn told me. everytime i seek for advise. his the best person to look up for. besides him there's ben. thyn has taught me alot about survival. ''survival of the fittest'' he say. i always have been looking up to him. he taught me how to walk. he taught me how to talk. he taught me everything i need to know about this so called "life". never trust anyone without seeing with your own bare naked eyes. simple as that may sound. i didnt have a strong heart as he does. i tried not believing. i tried telling lying. i tried making others feel on top of the world. i tried sarcasm. everything seems to be related to this unknown feeling which i call the ''gay feeling inside''. it makes you feel all guilty and your mind starts to have vision of your own perspective. you begin to think of whats wrong and bad to right and good. soon later you try ever so hard to turn things around elsewhere but nothing seems to be in your control. and things only makes matter from worse to worst. by then you begin you indulge yourself into your own ego and sorrow and pain mix em all up and you'll get that ''gay feeling''. i swear i wasnt this soft in heart last time. but its my nature to be caring towards others. friends call me their dad. my own family thinks otherwise though. especially francis. he has always been there for me and teach me almost everything since thyn left to kl. but i've never listen/hear a single words my dad nor francis and kenneth say. the reason is because i only trust three person in my life. thyn,mum, and God. i never sleep without praying anymore. im only 15 but i already know too much. i believe in Him because he rescued me once already. even my family from leaving this december. that's why. i have so much faith in Him.

then there's yesterday. sometimes lying is better than the truth. but in my world. truth is what gets things going up. thinking positive is the solution for almost everything. having that extra strength within you. that makes you ''you''. you show the world what your made off. that's what we're suppose to do. proving others that your useful not better than them. and allow me to get this straight. i have been not thinking about her anymore. i am over her. i am new,striped and polish. i have no intention whatsoever. but your mind. keeps thinking that i am. wena dude. im over her. get over it. "just say your not over her" ? she sent me that text. you sound like you want me to get her back. your saying all those bad words and swears. your plan was trying to get me aggitated? so i can tell you the truth? im sorry for dissapointing you but she's yours. so please release me. i have nothing against you or anything. you got her fair and square.

moving on to a happier and brighter section. i personally love this song rite now. i want his voice and his hair. i want my hair to be long as his. God dammit. i just want long hair right now. my hair looks like the guy in Star Wars. i look so weird.

aight then, cheerios.
i hope you understand wena cause i dont
give a damn about your zeda anymore. so please.
leave me alone.

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stayed at darryl's place. God please take care of him. hahaha. cian bha him. just operate. hahaha. XD

omg. i will never get over the sweet obsession i have with mayday parade. just when i thought they're not gonna make a new album *sobs* suddenly! they did! im ya number one fan MAYDAY PARADE



anywhere but here - mayday parade
*official video*




i swear this time i mean it - mayday parade
*dedicated to stannia*



still breathing - mayday parade
*daryl's song*



*greg's song*

try hearing all the song from the new album :p i bet you will love em'
i need the cd! XD i really really want oh. whoever gets me the cd i'll do anything oh :(

dear,i cant stop reading the text you sent me last night. i'll remember it forever. i love you :)

AIGHTS CHEERIOS ! feeling good :D

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totally had fun time at izzal's place today. i feel totally like home over there. i greet practically everyone i know. izzal's mum so loving this. haha. anyways. i LOVE the food there. RIBS. how can you not like em ? hahaha.

me and mamat was thinking of a weird look but it turned out muka mengencang. hahaha. i love his house oh. its so big. it has a field to play football. it has everything! god i wish i have a house to beat that one. hahaha. i sorted things out with her. everything's settled. oh god how much ily. f.y.i the songs just for hear. i love this song. super nice. super awesome. super kick :D

aights cheerios! ilystannia :P

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I AM THE SKY

YOU ARE THE OCEAN

now im gonna make a tribute. to the person who have left a deep mark in my life. i will never ever ever forget this person. she's loyal, she's smart,she's a bitch,tears seriously came out when i read her post. haha. i call her in many names. some say i call her bitch. others say i call cinabeng. but i think what her mother has name her is one of the seven wonders of the world. lucynda joey. you practically been using my own words agaisnt me. i have been such a hypocrite when it come to love. you stood up for me. eventhough people labels you with mean words and things would have brought you down. both you and i know. i have change towards this. i promise i'll love stannia chong with all my heart. till the very dying moment. when i did that complete melt down that nobody knows.things that occur to me for the past two years. things that were unslove by my useless life. you made it happen. you gave me the strenght to stand today. you know im always the shoulder you need to cry on. dont even think of doing this on your blog. hahaha :D



i wanna say. i love stannia. you have been there for me as well. for 17 days. i actually felt like it has been so long. you own my heart. keep it well. i promise you it will give you that warm feeling everytime we're away. i know we're so far away, but i know your here with me now,we'll make it through i hope your the one i share my life with, i wish you could be the one i die with,i pray your the one i build my home with i hope i will hear you saying i love you to me all my life.it's time to try anything to be with you again. i love you deardear. i still owe you so many things. i still gonna give you what you deserve. i still gonna keep my promise for you. i guess this is pretty much it. the song will say everything for me stannia. dont cry :p

aights cheerios people. take care all.
i love you stannia klassen




p/s : nina, buy ah my books. i become author this. hehe.

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we the kings - all again for you
[ song of the day ]

so hello again, i totally woke up at 8 today just to text stannia. hahaha. that time gila man the heavy rain. its like WHUSSSHHHH. i went like wth. sick man the rain. so i woke up at 11. around that time la. ngamngam that time also J woke up. hahaha. he slept over. watching that un-deserve victory of ManUtd and ManCity. it ended 4-3.. then i sms stannia and rubina and daryl. someone is gonna get wet on monday ! hahaha. i text stannia and she's like in Cp. i went like woah. hahaa. so i got up. brush up. took a shower. and ask mum to send me to town. which she totally did. haha. i love mummy. anyway. so i went to warisan to meet her with her friend. and damn girl she was fine. hahaha :p we walked to cathay to watch a movie and we watched. G-force. haha. that movie so cute this talking guinea pigs. they'll nvr let you down. haha.

" Get your butt out of my face, Get your face out of my butt! "

that killed me. hahaha. funny this them. hahaha. so i watch finish already with them. we walked to Cp back to eat. hahaha. eat eat eat i met brandon kee chong. hahaha. he works in Mcd. haha. so funny this pindik pindik batak batak like seanricko. hahaha. i chat with carmen again. we were looking for insults. for the british i think? hahaha.

bitch ! haih. i dunno how la to live without you this. i'll remember everything. i got your back and you got mine. appreciatte it. a lot. im the sky. i understand :p

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destine - in your arms
[ song of the day ]

today so weird this. i woke dizzy dizzy cuz someone like totally woke me. i wanted to go down and brush teeth then my mum shout. i ran. fell knee first on the stairs.pain pain rub rub. continue running my parents toilet got leak. so have to naik the roof punya tangki again. naik naik fix fix. okay done. bath bath clean clean. wipe wipe. body body. change change went to a open house in likas. some datuk's place. i saw uncle ronald cooke. hahaha. that dude funny this.i took drinks for everyone on my table. i feel like so generous today. so i help la. then i told mum bout her handphone. surprisingly mum wasnt angry at all. so nice this. then i told her the phone izzal borrowed me the battery suck. so she lend me her phone gen oh. gila i love you mummy. then then i can finally text stannia fast fast. the phone lags like shit this. i help gavin with his problem. with aleyh la. ish. hahaha. i called lucynda and ask her everything. then i text stannia till after midnight. i watch liverpool match when i was texting her. i hate liverpool zonal markings. no use at all. but i adore west ham la. haha. it was a fun match. kept me awake. hmm, now it's raining so heavy. so boring this the weather today. suck oh. hahaha. i need to play football. i need to kick a ball. that only relief stress. pmr is like what.. 18 days ? crapness

AIGHTS CHEERIOS

18 days to PMR