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omg.
school has been closed down. kinda freaky cause i kinda have fever. shit.

did absolutely nothing today. sms sms with people only. haiz. sometimes i wish she was you. haha. but but but. after i ate panadol i okay trus. maybe normal maybe not. mum worried sick. haiz. not my thing eh. im not used gettin sick anyway.

anyway, short post today again people dont really have much energy. haha. waps.

aights cheerios :DD

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damn i'm bald.
damn i'm piss.
damn i'm hurt.
damn i'm sick of it.
love be damn !

i don't want an explanation, there's nothing i could say to you.
cause yesterday you wreck my life.

anyway, i watched my hair fall so fast. i am god damn bald ! hehe :D

aights cheerios :((

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the most memoriable post ever in my life.

i will never forget how our team played. i will never forget how we shed tears. i will never forget the scored. i will never forget the good times. i will never forget how gay we were. i will never forget how freak out we were. but mostly i will never forget how together we were.

azfar,adza,jayjay,jared,bryan,shafie,oliver,albert,syahmi
didi,pangiran,gusti,thom,viely,azlizan


Day 1
we set up things in school. we brought everything our tooth brush and toiletries clothes and all. then suddenly two of our member got dropped. at the very last second. punya la ! our teachers in charge of our football team did nothing. scared again that. the rest of us went to ask why. they say got case. i went like wtf ? because i know that case and and and it's close ! for like over a month already. this really really pulled me down. not only me actually. it pulled the whole team down. haih. but we got into the school VAN. suckish. there's two of em'. other schools got huge buses. punya kin malu. the dude drove to membakut for at least 3 hours ? about that la. first time went up on a ferry ! hahaha. so fun the first time la. but the food in the expensive like hell ! got aircon inside the place. so fun this. got tv again. apocolypeto the movie first first. hahaha. i sat with viely. budu oh that guy. but funny also la. his sarcasm. many Maktab Sabah,All Saint,Stella Maris, people. the girls there boleh tahan la. lek ah baby :D hahaha. then about 3 hours again we reach LABUAN. first time there also. effing empty la that place. but chocolate heaven ! damn. hahaha. and liquor and all la. got down from the ferry i brought this huge bag. haha. lazy wanna wash baju and stuff. we went to the hostel. Sekolah Menengah Sains. damn keras man that place. means got a lot of ghost like that la. because that place used to be the jepun war place like that. and behind that school. a graveyard for those died in the war. punya la. we set our bags, pick a bed. i pick on top ! haha. then we found out that we place all of the players stayed was empty before and no one stayed there cause the place keras la. no fan again that. then around 4 like that went to train at the field. haha. train train train. around 6 like that bath then go eat dinner. super suck. hahaha. bida eh the food. ish. then 10 + went to berjudi. hahaha ! then 2 like that sleep.

Day 2
woke up early in the morning. bout 4. cause gusti woke us up. " wui bangun bangun bangun suma! hari ini kita ada satu matlamat! cepat cepat cepat pi mandi! bernard bangun sblum pangiran amput ko. " i trus wake up eh. pangiran you gay whore :D hahaha. no la jkjk. but he really said that. hahaha. then then then eat breakfast which also suck. 7.30 the match against Maktab Sabah. we lost 3-0. it's bad. hahaha. we all played okay. but i hurt my left ankle again. still pain till now. but can walk la. need to check it though. tomorrow maybe. cause the ankle bone like lost this. hahaha. it looks flat now. haha XD kinda hard la wanna play with them since they have a coach and all our teacher suck never say or do anything. end of the match. bryan azlizan oliver injured. but only byran cannot play. the other two tahan la. then finish. bath. sleep. then afternoon went to UK. i thought smart gila babi. sekali punya bida. empty bha the shopping mall. played bowling la. that was fun. and and and i ate 1901. hahaha. along with azfar and adza. viely and shafie went to buy drinks at giant. byran played bowling with the teachers. i beat all of em with 127 points. hahaha. shafie wanna challenge me. he got 78 only. hahaha. byran got 99. adza got 40. first timer. hahaha. his the youngest btw. form 2. i bought 10 reload cause i wanna call Lucynda. sms sms with her and mum first. both both also worried about me :D i love you guys. hahaha. then dinner suck. hahaha. normal. then i call baby talked about 45 minutes. then berjudi and minum minum JD + Cola. then sleep. hahaha.

Day 3
woke up around 4 again cause of gusti. same shit. " bangun bangun bangun woi suma ! cepat ari ni kita ada satu matlamat lagi. kasi kalah st anthony " if we lost to that school we out trus. 7.30 again the match. the hostel like jail oh! anyway. we beat st.anthony 3-1. hahaha i make a penalty. hahaha. then jay jay took it and score. bryan since his not playing he become our coach bagus also. first timer win already. hahaha. we become really happy. hahaha. all saint and maktab went to the final. those two school nda be-ngam punya. so our match our 3-4th placing was in the evening. we lost 4-0. jan kasitau orang. eseh skill si gusti. hahaha damn funny man him. haih, that lost also cause we didn't get enough rest. oh well. we did our best. then at went back around 5 like that. MANDI PANTAI ! with the all saints girls watching us. did so many embarassing stuff. hahaha. pangiran naked almost la. but in the dorm he always naked la. satu hati bha. naked naked la like this. hahaha. i didn't ah. so gay but member member la. hahaha. at night played basketball. with the pekerja pekerja. and then DAMN! we saw what we presume balan2. bryan use the football to play basketball then he kick it hard la. it went to the dark dark area. then thom big kan he not scared so he went la. i was talking to gusti and jared. thom ask bryan where. then three of us look at thom. bryan was alrady looking at him. then suddenly got two light. we all 5 hairan. we turn and look back. no light. look left no car. look up no lightning. then thom say. " wui apa tu ? npa ada dua ? " trus we all 5 run. gila punya scary! adui. then talk talk with the all saint girls the all also saw inside and outside their dorm. damn scary this. hahaha. then wanted to berjudi but raining heavy suddenly. then i lost my jersey there. ish. 4 of us did. then then no current gila my phobia trus happen bha. dark isolated place shitness. slept with azfar. hahaha ! :D ngam ngam the night we saw hantu again that. then 1 something sleep. oh oh oh btw that place so hard to find plug to charge eh. sudah izzal's phone yang i borrow cepat habis battery. gila babi tul.

Day 4.
nothing really much happen lo. we went to watch the final at the Labuan Stadium Maktab and All Saint. All Saint won and going to Pahang next month. they won 1-0. Adam scored. fast man that guy. haha. the eat eat eat eat. after that went to buy chocolate for everyone. hahaha. bought myself a vodka. drink drink drink. hahaha no effect -.- thom got drunk dunno what he drink. with didi la. then hung out with stella girls before going in the ferry. went inside hung out with stella girls and all saint girls. oh before that the whole team eat at KFC. hahaha. i minta tolong the abang in the ferry to charge my phone. dapat also la. haha. then 50m before port. the ferry's engine rosak. we got stuck. for 19 minutes. i counted. hahaha. i was outside the whole time. then went to van sing sing sing. i start bha. then eveyone sleep cept me and viely and syahmi. reach La Salle school and go home the end :D

man this experience man fun eh. i went to labuan to play football. we had our ups and downs. but no matter what. we did our very best. next year just you wait i'll improve. hahaha. i'm warning you guys XD hahaha. but but oh well i love you guys. i love mummy. i love lucynda.

now im back finally internet. but now gotta study. PMR near this. fuck.
aights then.

CHEERIOS PEOPLE OF LABUAN.
CHEERIOS FOOTBALL PLAYERS.
cheerios readers.
:DDDDDDD

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those yang read this post before. sshhh :D
cuz oh well. im just gonna shut it. :)

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well well. 7k. hahaha. what more can i say ? i made a lot of new friends. farahyn was one of em. she's really scary. haha. right baby ? suddenly come and wanna berkenalan. baby baby baby. your so sad today. and mad. and angry. and looking at me differently. but but but. i don't wanna rub this in your face but i told you so :D God i love you. haha. well i saw zeda today she didn't layan me earlier until i was with peaches. and i saw my bestfriends girlfriends. they're awesome. the DLNYs. haha. awesome couple of friends. i ran as fast as i could. hahaha. it went like zoom ! cause i ran with my mp3 today and i hear emo songs this straight away no mood to run. until i reached the first 100 plus checkpoint that's when i heard " beat it by FOB " haha. trus steam. ran like a mad person. i when and salam everyone i know today.

BABY! throw it away ! forget yesterday !
hehe. we talked out of it. we let our heart out. we spoke for hours. until zeda asked me " why joey ? " i went like oh well. haha. and lola i know you read my blog already. haha. " when's page 34 ? " i remember that and i cant even remember what page i am in actually. and awww to jordan and najwa. sweetness. nadira and qila lil sis i love you guys. hehe. oh oh i even met olivia michelle gomes. god i miss her so much. so long no see pal. haha. russell and amalina cool. iffa and mamat not yet. jordan and najwa sweet. darryl and his lil brother cute. abraham with two girls everytime err weird. khairul and shukran gay. me and lucynda kickass and romantic! eseh :D

IZZAL YOU BISH ! how's the match la ? man i miss you dude. 3 days already oh we never talked. hahahaha. where the hell are you now ? ManUtd scored the first goal that's all i know this. rooney bha. seh :D i met some other few people but i usually see them so nvm. gregies walked with his friend. hahaha. olivia suck in bowling. hehe. wesley so gay. and and and aaron cewe that. so bad oh you.

i love you LUCYNDA :DD

aight peeps. fucking happy cheerios :D

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hmm, my life nearly skip yesterday. sorry everyone i didn't paid any attention to you guys. i suddenly had a blast from the past. and well i was tired at night. been feeling like shit early in the morning. somemore i was hearing people's confession bout love and stuff. i feel so sad that i did what i did last time. well, this saturday is gonna be the anniversary i guess. not the date but the event. seriously feel like shit and like i wanna punch something so hard that UGH ! now actually no mood to type anything. i am so down. plus the piano song is sad which makes my life more miserable. as long as i have her i think i can make it. holding on isn't hard. but what i've let go wasn't easy. maybe sometimes when life turns to the other side, i'll see the better side of it. i cant concentrate at all. i 've been writing scribbles of names everywhere. plus when i wrote my title for my malay essay it went something like this " tuliskan sebuah karangan jenis cereka yang bermula dengan *something*. karangan anda tidak hadir i loved her " my mind is so disturbed. maybe it's mamat putting the song " paranoid by JB " in my head. but no. i know the reason. i've never been so miserable this year butt why start now ? i wish i get accepted by the singapore scholarship so i'll leave next year and study there. but that would make me miss everyone here.

i know living life to the fullest isn't easy. i know that sometimes we have to let somethings go. i told my best dude in the whole world this advise when he needed it. i told everyone advises when they needed it. but now i need advise. i need a really good one. i am such a hipocrit. i tell but i can't do anything myself. i hate being in a situation where everyone wants to take care of me. i hate to be in a situation where i am the attention besides with my friends telling stories and/or jokes. maybe sometimes i need tell my friends ? to me they won't understand whats in my mind and heart. they won't. but how will i know if i never try ? i have a reasonable reason for that and that would be i don't want them to talk and pity me and care for me. remember the saying ? '' respect yourself is you want others to respect you ? '' or even '' don't do to others if you don't want others to do onto you ? '' try mixing them together see what you get. i find it hard to gain respect. i never did anything bad to my friends but i still get what i got. well thats so negative of me now. i never knew whats it like to be like this again. it's been like 7 months since i ever became this sad and down. yesterday was so dreadful. i didn't eat. i ate but not a lot. just to cover up my actions. so that my parents won't ask anything. i guess life is really pulling me down.

ever since we were separated i thought we could be together once more. it has been two years and i still can't forget you. wheater i like it or not people still talks about us. wheater it's bad or not i couldn't care less. i help you with your life. to get back what you wanted. ever thought what was on my mind on that very moment ? if it was envy a little. if it was the " why the hell me ? " feeling a little too. but it was more of the " what does he have that i don't " feeling that struck me that very moment. i know it's so late for me to release this feeling in my heart but i did what my heart wanted me to do for such a long time ago. how long would it take me for you to realize ? i've made bad mistakes. i've even make you cry. i've even see you cry. but never once i've heard you seek help and randomly ask, '' hey how are you ? " or " hey i heard blah blah blah " or whatever. i guess that feeling in you is really gone. till our forever meets no end. that ' end ' in you has come i guess. i always told my friends that we're so close , that we share secrets, that we even talk on the phone sometimes. am i just obsess ? am i just overprotective ? i'd lie and it's true. but i never told you that i love you unsincerely. many people knows your still here with me. many people keeps reminding me of you. many people called me stupid for doing so many bad things to you. i agree to all of them. no matter what. NO MATTER WHAT. i'll never keep my hopes down. White Chess if your reading this. please don't follow my footsteps. please dont follow bad stuffs i did and regreted.

Baby Peaches i'm so sorry you have to read this.
i just really need to let this off my chest. Izzal didn't come to school. he go watch ManUtd.
i love you baby :(

aight not-so-cheerios.

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one thing i gotta say is.
LABUAN.

hahahahahahaha. Seriously cant wait already this. My legs wanna kick balls now. Darryl already kena. Halim since primary school kena. Izzal hard cuz he fat. Mamat kena everyday. Nabil gay i don't dare. Abraham lagi la. Daryl too innocent. Greg too cool. Jordan also gay. Patrick different class. Russell too far. Joshua too ugly. Jazswuin just masuk our gang. Shukran might kick me back. Pritchard likes me. Valentine too fast. Aaron too tall. Kieran scary talk about game only later. Dalton later don't sell me a player. Nigel umm dunno. Abel so weird. Sheldon emo later. Edwin too cool for school. Vinoun later kena force again.

Those are my gang la. Got more but not that close in school. So today went to training football again. Almost kena injured. Almost scored. Still menyesal i didn't push the ball any forward. Could have ran pass the defence. But NOOOO. Budu punya kaki. I wanna wakil Sabah. Ish. Gotta up my standard. Great more work to do.

Dude up there, why am i so lazy ? and and and stupid ? i suck in studies eh. I wish i copy this. but it's Pmr year. Almost got last in class. Smart kan ?

i wish i got pictures of me playing football this. And more pictures to upload in my Blog. So dull this. HAHAHA. great.

Hmm, Peaches :D
ik hou van jou :D

smell you later guys
aight cheerios :DD