dunno where's the futures heading. thts what thyn told me. everytime i seek for advise. his the best person to look up for. besides him there's ben. thyn has taught me alot about survival. ''survival of the fittest'' he say. i always have been looking up to him. he taught me how to walk. he taught me how to talk. he taught me everything i need to know about this so called "life". never trust anyone without seeing with your own bare naked eyes. simple as that may sound. i didnt have a strong heart as he does. i tried not believing. i tried telling lying. i tried making others feel on top of the world. i tried sarcasm. everything seems to be related to this unknown feeling which i call the ''gay feeling inside''. it makes you feel all guilty and your mind starts to have vision of your own perspective. you begin to think of whats wrong and bad to right and good. soon later you try ever so hard to turn things around elsewhere but nothing seems to be in your control. and things only makes matter from worse to worst. by then you begin you indulge yourself into your own ego and sorrow and pain mix em all up and you'll get that ''gay feeling''. i swear i wasnt this soft in heart last time. but its my nature to be caring towards others. friends call me their dad. my own family thinks otherwise though. especially francis. he has always been there for me and teach me almost everything since thyn left to kl. but i've never listen/hear a single words my dad nor francis and kenneth say. the reason is because i only trust three person in my life. thyn,mum, and God. i never sleep without praying anymore. im only 15 but i already know too much. i believe in Him because he rescued me once already. even my family from leaving this december. that's why. i have so much faith in Him.
then there's yesterday. sometimes lying is better than the truth. but in my world. truth is what gets things going up. thinking positive is the solution for almost everything. having that extra strength within you. that makes you ''you''. you show the world what your made off. that's what we're suppose to do. proving others that your useful not better than them. and allow me to get this straight. i have been not thinking about her anymore. i am over her. i am new,striped and polish. i have no intention whatsoever. but your mind. keeps thinking that i am. wena dude. im over her. get over it. "just say your not over her" ? she sent me that text. you sound like you want me to get her back. your saying all those bad words and swears. your plan was trying to get me aggitated? so i can tell you the truth? im sorry for dissapointing you but she's yours. so please release me. i have nothing against you or anything. you got her fair and square.
moving on to a happier and brighter section. i personally love this song rite now. i want his voice and his hair. i want my hair to be long as his. God dammit. i just want long hair right now. my hair looks like the guy in Star Wars. i look so weird.
aight then, cheerios.
i hope you understand wena cause i dont
give a damn about your zeda anymore. so please.
leave me alone.
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