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hahaha ! how lame can you be ? first you used my name in my own cbox,then using fake names. if you tia puas hati. meet la. first you ulu my brother. then you wanna trash my name. in a blog ? dude dude dude don't get me wrong. how gay can you be ? seriously. you said you just said you would fuck your own mum just to make me feel happy. what the hell was that ? that is so weird. why arent you telling me you name ? why so scared ? jesus christ. hahaha.

plus your like the stupidest person on earth if your trying to make me feel angry or pissed. cuz i****bernardmum,you mum gave you that name ? your mum is one hell of a bitch. one plastic flag lober bitch. in fact your name is sad. people will be like. " yoo, whatsup i****bernardmum. " HAHA! your just a sissy beyond 1st degree. just because i have a friend that made me think he was my friend. i forgive him. he doesn't have to say anything to make me feel better. knowing what we've gone through throughout these years, dude, if your reading this. it's okay. seriously. and for his girlfriends. i never said anything about you guys. you can ask anyone. since i have haters everywhere, it only makes sense someone is trying sabo me.

i barely talk about you guys. i'm just trying to avoid akwardness here. im always in the same car with you dude. and always played basketball with your brother. maybe you both wont forgive me. im not saying im changing or anything.

so dude who always tries to impose people in Cbox's. your a freak. and thank you for imposing my name too ? God,that is so gay. damn.

anywayy. Liverpool lost 3-1. NOOO! agaisnt Aston Villa. shit eh.
Torres scored. and LUCAS OWN GOAL,Ashley Young (P),Curtis Davies.

haih. gonna watch Up soon. not sure when. but will la. hahahah :D

aights cheerios :D

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i actually just realise i had itunes and limewire in my comp. after francis reformat the comp like a zillion times. haha. finally can hear songs not from projectplaylist.com or youtube. haha. i've been listening to Green Day so much lately. their songs are okay. but not to die for. Love Drunk by Boys Like Girls is another fun song stuck in my head. haha. i used to be love drunk lalalala :D i went to church again to today. sat and talk to francess,angel,alethia and francis. then jared and kevin came. we chat till church ended. then i talk with the scary dude that likes to sell the newspaper directly on your face. that is really weird. hahaha. then i talk with gavin. and saw dina and stacey. then all of the sudden we had a plan to go 1B. which we did. and i met sonia ! :D

watched district 9. i dont really wanna spoil the movie for you. but that show is actually sad this. haha. okay okay i'll shush. then played pool. with jared and J and brother. haha. i beat J, lost to francis and jared didnt manage too. he had to go home early. hahaa. till next time. then damn! 1B have this pet store called GF something. the puppies there are sooo totally cute! dayemn.

people got me got me question'in where is the love ?
everyone is advising me to forget about it and just forgive him. i'm like. yeah sure. i already did. it's okay,i'm okay. its a lesson. she's right. it's reality. i'll face it like a man. why should this pull me down ? i have better friends that can determine my future. nuff said :D

aights cheerios :D
the sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt :D

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Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.

for some reason i keep listening to this song. smart this. i heard it from Norwegian Recycling. then i hear this song itself. haih. im really really sad man.

J, i try this to find the guy. i asking around this. don't worry man. have faith.
i bet something is gonna happen.

francis and i cari this J. jan kastau orang. haha. be strong brother!
oh well shiats. its the holiday. i wanna watch all the new movies now. before no more time. :p

aights cheerios D:

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woah woah. pablo francisco like the funniest dude ever.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LgrMi7KgNW8&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cqnk60fW7_U&feature=related

watch them watch them !

anywayy, some bands nowadays makes weird songs. like there's this song with lyrics..
pineapple carrots, camera books, bill, water ?
oh hell no ! that just ruins everything. haha. which totally sucks. find this dude in youtube. SHANE DAWSON. his a comedian like FRED,kevjumba,mychonny,niggahiga, and all. they're all funny videos that they make on their own. totally awesome. and woah i guess i ticked someone off. well sorry. whatever la. i nvr ask you guys to like me anyway. so whatever you lay on me just do it. im not gonna do anything. for fuck's sake get over it.

friday gonna play football again. haih bru amos :D come bha. muahaha. :D

aights. cheerios :D

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holy crap ! why pmr so near already ? damn. why the dates so fast this ?

okai, starting with last saturday. it was lok yuk concert or music fest or something like that. the entrance dancing and pencaragam people were awesome. never in history our school would compare with those pencaragam people. we have like what. 18 people in the marching band ? haha. suck. and then there's a sort of gaduh that never really happen. im not so sure whats happening that time. i went blur. but they asked for my support. and i went out la

jan salah faham ah dudes. haha. we just wanna psycho you guys :p and agak agak la peeps. wanna confront mean confront. step up like how i step up on you last year with the darryl incident. and dude no wonder people likes you so much. yes i mean that in a most sarcastic way you can ever imagine. if you hated me since primary. why bother being friends ?

then today la. sunday i forgot already. today everyone is talking bout up there that. all i said was. jan kasitau orang. the whole day. i don't talk on peoples back. and my problem is my own problem. backstabbing is child's play. nda juga i jual nama orang. i'm gonna hold on to that now. never sell out on friends. still if someone is trying to sabo,why start there ? haha. whose to blame. i admit my mouth is a lil well you know,swear-able. oh well, believe what you wanna believe. no motive no reason no clue no idea no witness. i dont need you just as much you dont need me. then i went to parliment lasalle. PW menang this. haha. opposition can win this year. i hope. hehe.

okay okay. maybe i really dont like Malaysia but i love sabah. still i wanna persue my childhood dreams in travelling around the world. i know i cant be a football player. lawyer still got a lil chance. but i want to to travel. im not satisfied with where i am in life. haha.

aight then, cheerios peeps. :DD

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ABDUL QAYYUM

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go to this site and vote for him. please people ! do this for me. i wanna see him on mtv. haha :D

bryanlyt.com

he is a nice guy okay people. orang bagus. good friend. vote vote vote vote !

THEN SPREAD THE WORD. suruh them view my blog ! hahaha :D

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hello people :D
okay day by day my ankle feels like it wanna snap off. so pain this. okay practically this whole week was a holiday for my school right ? and i'm suppose to study for excel since we haven't sit for it. which i can never ever do. studying just really irritates me this. like how am i suppose to study with a headache. when i hear the word ' study ' i get headache. i cant stick stuff in my head no more. don't know why eh. i know i know studying is important. i can only study if there is someone to tutor me from the very beginning. which again comes to where my friends are smart-asses that couldn't teach a dump twat like me. seriously. copying also can get wrong. i only can stick to what i do best. lawan cakap/sports/something adventrous/risk taking events.

those are the only stuff i can do and remember. oh and well band songs. i love finding them. i guess not really much to type here. one whole week doing the same shit all over again. i need to get out ! and play futsal. home quaratine sucks. eww. i practically did this from monday.
wake up - brush teeth - online - eat - more eating - play xbox - online - watch tv - nap - eat - play football - talk with mum - mum scolds me cuz nvr study - eat - online - play xbox - sleep.

ohh-em-gee~ i hate being stuck like this at home ! i wanna go out ! shout on top of a hill. or the beach. or even the rocks at sutera. haha. i wanna take pictures. i wanna love someone. i wanna laugh a lot. i wanna hug unknown people for the fun of it. i wanna give money to the needy. i wanna support the environmental people. i wanna just jump in the air shout i love you world. i wanna kick football into the net so hard. let all the rage in me go. i just wanna get out of malaysia. travel around the world. especially paris. if i had the money i would so definetly bring jeremiah,cheryle,francis. holy crap. i need some air. haha :D

list of ' i wanna ' but we don't always get what we want right ? but those are my life goals. i will do em. no matter what. and well. being a lawyer too :)

quote :
make my day ! here's to the past ! i wanna escape this place ! here's to the days of the old !

aights cheerios ! :DD

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page 40 ey ? haha. thats fast. oh shit man. my toe bleed like hell today. i kick the football. blast la. trus darah. i scream. trus went to wash. haha. but it's okay. hmm nothing really much happen today. man my days in this whole one week suck like hell. im being quarantine at home. my mum's paranoid. i kinda wish i can drive now. i'll take the gang out and party the whole day. drink get drunk say stupid stuff. well done. haha. man i found like 32 new bands. but the one in the playlist is the one i found first. it's so fun to hear. haha.

yesterday i went out to dinner with jonross's parents. hoping much they would show. they i mean jonross and the lil bro. but they didn't. so i chat with his mum and dad. and my mum and dad. and francis. they're fun. but the food. 0. not nice. hahaha. it's nice at first. but then eww. naah. haha. oh its korean food btw. i still prefer the korean restorant in api api center. near kk toys. sedap this the food there. haha. went to tuition today. met patrick joshua and jordan. they're fun people to hang with. sms sms sms only i. since the one week holiday all i can do is football,online,xbox,sms. sms tia kalah la with the rest cuz i sms more than i breath. haha.

abraham your like the brother i never had. thanks dude for like being there everytime. and giving fullstops in everywhere i go and everything i do. eventhough i never listen. STILL. dude your the best. and i still wanna ulu darryl. cuz his black and all. not racist but his funny. haha.

curses to all the unwanted visions. that goes to every single one of em'. D:
maybe i was born to learn life. i'm so cut out to be a lawyer. *prasan*
that is so my life dream now. though i never show it. but i certainly love law.

aights ! Cheerios !

p/s : J i want photoshoot too! D:

I would take it back in a heartbeat.
I know this. I'm lost without you.
I can't got back. cuz I need to be the one you're saving.
Sunday's best we're never perfect and my regrets could never surface. :D

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my current band la that on top. hahaha. smart this the song and voice and the meaning. hahaha. francis is not talking to me again. don't know don't care why la. so yesterday i was watching Bridge To Terabithia and well so sad la that show. i cried this. pukindet. hahaha. like the bestfriend die like OH C'MON ! shit. just because didn't bring her along ? damn. the director has issues. haha. i'm no longer sick. not anymore. still taking medicine. awesomeness. then i watch horton hears a who ? hahaha. damn syok la that show. laugh a lot. and it's kinda sad also. i'm emotional. haha :D but but but the elephant cool.

eh eh eh wait. something really really funny happen! :D okokay. i went to see the doctors a few days back. so as soon as i entered the clinic. i trus go the toliet la. so the tempat to squat dirty. oh btw i wanna shit la that time. so i clean berabis la. sampai not wet anymore. so i squat down. WANTED to shit... until... a lady holding her baby open the door. i locked the door ! but how ? hmm :p then no way to cover already la kan. all i did was... thumbs up. haha. she saw EVERYTHING. :/ and maybe the baby also. i mean EVERYTHING. try asking a guy to squat down and his pant and boxer/underwear open. awesome.

oh well. nothing else. i text with sonia about amos yesterday. amos you whore in your school ah. hahaha :D wanna meet you guys again la. hahaha miss you and rav much now. well maybe no raveen but yeah you. FYI his afraid of beatle. my classmates and i made him cry over a beatle last time in sacred heart. hehe. don't kill me. wait you can't :p

damn awal pagi i found so many bands. awesomeness. gonna rate them soon. haha :DD
and now i gotta study. dunno how but i gotta try. PMR i hate you.. you.. you piece of paper. fff you.

well it's been like a week now you studied

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again D:

aight then. cheerios :D