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omg.
school has been closed down. kinda freaky cause i kinda have fever. shit.

did absolutely nothing today. sms sms with people only. haiz. sometimes i wish she was you. haha. but but but. after i ate panadol i okay trus. maybe normal maybe not. mum worried sick. haiz. not my thing eh. im not used gettin sick anyway.

anyway, short post today again people dont really have much energy. haha. waps.

aights cheerios :DD

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damn i'm bald.
damn i'm piss.
damn i'm hurt.
damn i'm sick of it.
love be damn !

i don't want an explanation, there's nothing i could say to you.
cause yesterday you wreck my life.

anyway, i watched my hair fall so fast. i am god damn bald ! hehe :D

aights cheerios :((

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the most memoriable post ever in my life.

i will never forget how our team played. i will never forget how we shed tears. i will never forget the scored. i will never forget the good times. i will never forget how gay we were. i will never forget how freak out we were. but mostly i will never forget how together we were.

azfar,adza,jayjay,jared,bryan,shafie,oliver,albert,syahmi
didi,pangiran,gusti,thom,viely,azlizan


Day 1
we set up things in school. we brought everything our tooth brush and toiletries clothes and all. then suddenly two of our member got dropped. at the very last second. punya la ! our teachers in charge of our football team did nothing. scared again that. the rest of us went to ask why. they say got case. i went like wtf ? because i know that case and and and it's close ! for like over a month already. this really really pulled me down. not only me actually. it pulled the whole team down. haih. but we got into the school VAN. suckish. there's two of em'. other schools got huge buses. punya kin malu. the dude drove to membakut for at least 3 hours ? about that la. first time went up on a ferry ! hahaha. so fun the first time la. but the food in the expensive like hell ! got aircon inside the place. so fun this. got tv again. apocolypeto the movie first first. hahaha. i sat with viely. budu oh that guy. but funny also la. his sarcasm. many Maktab Sabah,All Saint,Stella Maris, people. the girls there boleh tahan la. lek ah baby :D hahaha. then about 3 hours again we reach LABUAN. first time there also. effing empty la that place. but chocolate heaven ! damn. hahaha. and liquor and all la. got down from the ferry i brought this huge bag. haha. lazy wanna wash baju and stuff. we went to the hostel. Sekolah Menengah Sains. damn keras man that place. means got a lot of ghost like that la. because that place used to be the jepun war place like that. and behind that school. a graveyard for those died in the war. punya la. we set our bags, pick a bed. i pick on top ! haha. then we found out that we place all of the players stayed was empty before and no one stayed there cause the place keras la. no fan again that. then around 4 like that went to train at the field. haha. train train train. around 6 like that bath then go eat dinner. super suck. hahaha. bida eh the food. ish. then 10 + went to berjudi. hahaha ! then 2 like that sleep.

Day 2
woke up early in the morning. bout 4. cause gusti woke us up. " wui bangun bangun bangun suma! hari ini kita ada satu matlamat! cepat cepat cepat pi mandi! bernard bangun sblum pangiran amput ko. " i trus wake up eh. pangiran you gay whore :D hahaha. no la jkjk. but he really said that. hahaha. then then then eat breakfast which also suck. 7.30 the match against Maktab Sabah. we lost 3-0. it's bad. hahaha. we all played okay. but i hurt my left ankle again. still pain till now. but can walk la. need to check it though. tomorrow maybe. cause the ankle bone like lost this. hahaha. it looks flat now. haha XD kinda hard la wanna play with them since they have a coach and all our teacher suck never say or do anything. end of the match. bryan azlizan oliver injured. but only byran cannot play. the other two tahan la. then finish. bath. sleep. then afternoon went to UK. i thought smart gila babi. sekali punya bida. empty bha the shopping mall. played bowling la. that was fun. and and and i ate 1901. hahaha. along with azfar and adza. viely and shafie went to buy drinks at giant. byran played bowling with the teachers. i beat all of em with 127 points. hahaha. shafie wanna challenge me. he got 78 only. hahaha. byran got 99. adza got 40. first timer. hahaha. his the youngest btw. form 2. i bought 10 reload cause i wanna call Lucynda. sms sms with her and mum first. both both also worried about me :D i love you guys. hahaha. then dinner suck. hahaha. normal. then i call baby talked about 45 minutes. then berjudi and minum minum JD + Cola. then sleep. hahaha.

Day 3
woke up around 4 again cause of gusti. same shit. " bangun bangun bangun woi suma ! cepat ari ni kita ada satu matlamat lagi. kasi kalah st anthony " if we lost to that school we out trus. 7.30 again the match. the hostel like jail oh! anyway. we beat st.anthony 3-1. hahaha i make a penalty. hahaha. then jay jay took it and score. bryan since his not playing he become our coach bagus also. first timer win already. hahaha. we become really happy. hahaha. all saint and maktab went to the final. those two school nda be-ngam punya. so our match our 3-4th placing was in the evening. we lost 4-0. jan kasitau orang. eseh skill si gusti. hahaha damn funny man him. haih, that lost also cause we didn't get enough rest. oh well. we did our best. then at went back around 5 like that. MANDI PANTAI ! with the all saints girls watching us. did so many embarassing stuff. hahaha. pangiran naked almost la. but in the dorm he always naked la. satu hati bha. naked naked la like this. hahaha. i didn't ah. so gay but member member la. hahaha. at night played basketball. with the pekerja pekerja. and then DAMN! we saw what we presume balan2. bryan use the football to play basketball then he kick it hard la. it went to the dark dark area. then thom big kan he not scared so he went la. i was talking to gusti and jared. thom ask bryan where. then three of us look at thom. bryan was alrady looking at him. then suddenly got two light. we all 5 hairan. we turn and look back. no light. look left no car. look up no lightning. then thom say. " wui apa tu ? npa ada dua ? " trus we all 5 run. gila punya scary! adui. then talk talk with the all saint girls the all also saw inside and outside their dorm. damn scary this. hahaha. then wanted to berjudi but raining heavy suddenly. then i lost my jersey there. ish. 4 of us did. then then no current gila my phobia trus happen bha. dark isolated place shitness. slept with azfar. hahaha ! :D ngam ngam the night we saw hantu again that. then 1 something sleep. oh oh oh btw that place so hard to find plug to charge eh. sudah izzal's phone yang i borrow cepat habis battery. gila babi tul.

Day 4.
nothing really much happen lo. we went to watch the final at the Labuan Stadium Maktab and All Saint. All Saint won and going to Pahang next month. they won 1-0. Adam scored. fast man that guy. haha. the eat eat eat eat. after that went to buy chocolate for everyone. hahaha. bought myself a vodka. drink drink drink. hahaha no effect -.- thom got drunk dunno what he drink. with didi la. then hung out with stella girls before going in the ferry. went inside hung out with stella girls and all saint girls. oh before that the whole team eat at KFC. hahaha. i minta tolong the abang in the ferry to charge my phone. dapat also la. haha. then 50m before port. the ferry's engine rosak. we got stuck. for 19 minutes. i counted. hahaha. i was outside the whole time. then went to van sing sing sing. i start bha. then eveyone sleep cept me and viely and syahmi. reach La Salle school and go home the end :D

man this experience man fun eh. i went to labuan to play football. we had our ups and downs. but no matter what. we did our very best. next year just you wait i'll improve. hahaha. i'm warning you guys XD hahaha. but but oh well i love you guys. i love mummy. i love lucynda.

now im back finally internet. but now gotta study. PMR near this. fuck.
aights then.

CHEERIOS PEOPLE OF LABUAN.
CHEERIOS FOOTBALL PLAYERS.
cheerios readers.
:DDDDDDD

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those yang read this post before. sshhh :D
cuz oh well. im just gonna shut it. :)

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well well. 7k. hahaha. what more can i say ? i made a lot of new friends. farahyn was one of em. she's really scary. haha. right baby ? suddenly come and wanna berkenalan. baby baby baby. your so sad today. and mad. and angry. and looking at me differently. but but but. i don't wanna rub this in your face but i told you so :D God i love you. haha. well i saw zeda today she didn't layan me earlier until i was with peaches. and i saw my bestfriends girlfriends. they're awesome. the DLNYs. haha. awesome couple of friends. i ran as fast as i could. hahaha. it went like zoom ! cause i ran with my mp3 today and i hear emo songs this straight away no mood to run. until i reached the first 100 plus checkpoint that's when i heard " beat it by FOB " haha. trus steam. ran like a mad person. i when and salam everyone i know today.

BABY! throw it away ! forget yesterday !
hehe. we talked out of it. we let our heart out. we spoke for hours. until zeda asked me " why joey ? " i went like oh well. haha. and lola i know you read my blog already. haha. " when's page 34 ? " i remember that and i cant even remember what page i am in actually. and awww to jordan and najwa. sweetness. nadira and qila lil sis i love you guys. hehe. oh oh i even met olivia michelle gomes. god i miss her so much. so long no see pal. haha. russell and amalina cool. iffa and mamat not yet. jordan and najwa sweet. darryl and his lil brother cute. abraham with two girls everytime err weird. khairul and shukran gay. me and lucynda kickass and romantic! eseh :D

IZZAL YOU BISH ! how's the match la ? man i miss you dude. 3 days already oh we never talked. hahahaha. where the hell are you now ? ManUtd scored the first goal that's all i know this. rooney bha. seh :D i met some other few people but i usually see them so nvm. gregies walked with his friend. hahaha. olivia suck in bowling. hehe. wesley so gay. and and and aaron cewe that. so bad oh you.

i love you LUCYNDA :DD

aight peeps. fucking happy cheerios :D

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hmm, my life nearly skip yesterday. sorry everyone i didn't paid any attention to you guys. i suddenly had a blast from the past. and well i was tired at night. been feeling like shit early in the morning. somemore i was hearing people's confession bout love and stuff. i feel so sad that i did what i did last time. well, this saturday is gonna be the anniversary i guess. not the date but the event. seriously feel like shit and like i wanna punch something so hard that UGH ! now actually no mood to type anything. i am so down. plus the piano song is sad which makes my life more miserable. as long as i have her i think i can make it. holding on isn't hard. but what i've let go wasn't easy. maybe sometimes when life turns to the other side, i'll see the better side of it. i cant concentrate at all. i 've been writing scribbles of names everywhere. plus when i wrote my title for my malay essay it went something like this " tuliskan sebuah karangan jenis cereka yang bermula dengan *something*. karangan anda tidak hadir i loved her " my mind is so disturbed. maybe it's mamat putting the song " paranoid by JB " in my head. but no. i know the reason. i've never been so miserable this year butt why start now ? i wish i get accepted by the singapore scholarship so i'll leave next year and study there. but that would make me miss everyone here.

i know living life to the fullest isn't easy. i know that sometimes we have to let somethings go. i told my best dude in the whole world this advise when he needed it. i told everyone advises when they needed it. but now i need advise. i need a really good one. i am such a hipocrit. i tell but i can't do anything myself. i hate being in a situation where everyone wants to take care of me. i hate to be in a situation where i am the attention besides with my friends telling stories and/or jokes. maybe sometimes i need tell my friends ? to me they won't understand whats in my mind and heart. they won't. but how will i know if i never try ? i have a reasonable reason for that and that would be i don't want them to talk and pity me and care for me. remember the saying ? '' respect yourself is you want others to respect you ? '' or even '' don't do to others if you don't want others to do onto you ? '' try mixing them together see what you get. i find it hard to gain respect. i never did anything bad to my friends but i still get what i got. well thats so negative of me now. i never knew whats it like to be like this again. it's been like 7 months since i ever became this sad and down. yesterday was so dreadful. i didn't eat. i ate but not a lot. just to cover up my actions. so that my parents won't ask anything. i guess life is really pulling me down.

ever since we were separated i thought we could be together once more. it has been two years and i still can't forget you. wheater i like it or not people still talks about us. wheater it's bad or not i couldn't care less. i help you with your life. to get back what you wanted. ever thought what was on my mind on that very moment ? if it was envy a little. if it was the " why the hell me ? " feeling a little too. but it was more of the " what does he have that i don't " feeling that struck me that very moment. i know it's so late for me to release this feeling in my heart but i did what my heart wanted me to do for such a long time ago. how long would it take me for you to realize ? i've made bad mistakes. i've even make you cry. i've even see you cry. but never once i've heard you seek help and randomly ask, '' hey how are you ? " or " hey i heard blah blah blah " or whatever. i guess that feeling in you is really gone. till our forever meets no end. that ' end ' in you has come i guess. i always told my friends that we're so close , that we share secrets, that we even talk on the phone sometimes. am i just obsess ? am i just overprotective ? i'd lie and it's true. but i never told you that i love you unsincerely. many people knows your still here with me. many people keeps reminding me of you. many people called me stupid for doing so many bad things to you. i agree to all of them. no matter what. NO MATTER WHAT. i'll never keep my hopes down. White Chess if your reading this. please don't follow my footsteps. please dont follow bad stuffs i did and regreted.

Baby Peaches i'm so sorry you have to read this.
i just really need to let this off my chest. Izzal didn't come to school. he go watch ManUtd.
i love you baby :(

aight not-so-cheerios.

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one thing i gotta say is.
LABUAN.

hahahahahahaha. Seriously cant wait already this. My legs wanna kick balls now. Darryl already kena. Halim since primary school kena. Izzal hard cuz he fat. Mamat kena everyday. Nabil gay i don't dare. Abraham lagi la. Daryl too innocent. Greg too cool. Jordan also gay. Patrick different class. Russell too far. Joshua too ugly. Jazswuin just masuk our gang. Shukran might kick me back. Pritchard likes me. Valentine too fast. Aaron too tall. Kieran scary talk about game only later. Dalton later don't sell me a player. Nigel umm dunno. Abel so weird. Sheldon emo later. Edwin too cool for school. Vinoun later kena force again.

Those are my gang la. Got more but not that close in school. So today went to training football again. Almost kena injured. Almost scored. Still menyesal i didn't push the ball any forward. Could have ran pass the defence. But NOOOO. Budu punya kaki. I wanna wakil Sabah. Ish. Gotta up my standard. Great more work to do.

Dude up there, why am i so lazy ? and and and stupid ? i suck in studies eh. I wish i copy this. but it's Pmr year. Almost got last in class. Smart kan ?

i wish i got pictures of me playing football this. And more pictures to upload in my Blog. So dull this. HAHAHA. great.

Hmm, Peaches :D
ik hou van jou :D

smell you later guys
aight cheerios :DD

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well well well, today was splendid. PMR seminar was a blast. But still some parts were boring. It's a seminar for Christ's sake. So anyway, I love this song now. Haha. So fast change. The seminar like fun cause me and izzal and mamat made it fun. Haha. Laughing all the way. We answered the people more. Plus, we're la sallians who cares' ? Okay la. short post today.

Cheerios :D

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so, hitpissfuckcuntcocksuckermotherfuckertitsfartturdandtwat :D

I seriously need to like calm down ,take a deep breath,play football and drink lots of water. Recently i am been so tired this. Till the extend i thought i had H1N1. What would happen if i die ? Ever wonder about that ? I mean if you die :D

If i die, i want it to be super dramatic like sacrificing my life for the person i love. Like mum or dad, or a girlfriend.

SCENE ONE. annnndddddd ACTION!

One fine day, my girlfriend and I had plan to go for a date. We went to this unique restaurant near the city. My brought her with my car. A lousy one but comfy. So we got ourselves comfortable in the diner and ordered our food. Suddenly, a dude came in the diner looking really suspicious as if he wanted to rob the diner. I stood up, walked to the toilet. As soon as i close shut my toilet door. I heard a loud bang. Sounded like a gunshot. I ran outside. The suspicious dude was lying on the floor. Dead. I quickly find my girlfriend. But she was no where to be found. I ran outside. There she was. Hiding behind the car. I stood still breathing air of reliefness. I started searching for the culprit. But no one seems to be holding a gun or look like someone's holding a gun. I assume the gunner has ran away. I call the ambulance by the nearest payphone. Everyone was save. My dad was there because his a police officer. I walk outside the diner. Assuring everythings fine. Suddenly i felt like a gun on my back. Then BANG. The gunner was there after all.

aight aight...

SCENE 2. aaaannnddddd ACTION!

It was a gun fight. I held my pistol(sounds wrong) and aim at the enemy. I shoot like a mad person. Loosing all my accuaracy. I was scared. Im only 15. I look around. The robbers in the bank hold many people for ransom. I was there because my mum is one of the ransom people. Then the officers tried talking to the robbers. I sneak into the bank. I slowly tip-toe into the vault where the hostages were kept hostage. I open the vault. Release them from the chains their in. I release my mum's one first. I step outside. Looked left to right. Brought everyone out the back door. The robbers heard something. They started to check the vault. The ran towards all of us. I ran with my mum as fast i could. Nearly outside. They shot some of us. A lil girl was caught. They rest of the hostage managed to escape. I stop and turn back. Let go of my mum's hand. When i mum went out then started to realize that i'm gone. It was a panic situation. I went back for the girl. The leader of the robber said " it's either you or this lil girl. Your call " i slowly put my hand behind where i kept my gun. Took it and pop it. Directly kill the man. The lil girl ran towards me. We ran towards the door. Bending down from all the shooting the robbers shot. We got outside, then is stop and the lil girl pulled me. I said " go go go ! " At the entrance of the door. I stop. Everyone starlted. I fell to my knee and tears began to rolled out. Blood start dripping. Then BANG! again. Someone was behind me.

HAHAHA. Man that's so sad. When i die, i don't want anyone there just my family. Damn, i need to play sports now. But what happen's if i'm moving away ? Far far away from here. Lagila i don't wanna tell people. Haha. Oh well, Francis made a blog that looked exactly like mine. So weird. Haha XD

Suddenly kan, I love Peaches this. It's so sweet. And juicy and lovely. HAHA. It's a fruit but still. Sushi yummy :D

Aight then cheeriosss :DDD

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LOVE ME FOR A REASON,
LET THE REASON BE LOVE.

As gay as this may sound, Boyzone song is in my head all of a sudden. Boyzone rocks hard ! Where got bands sing songs that's touching ? Well, i mean the lyrics that's clear and simple and easy to catch. Well there's a lot but damn so over-gay. Like theres this part of the song " i can't continue guessing,cause it's only messing,with my pride and my mind,so i write this down time to time " HAHA. Super gay now. It all started with my bestfriend in KL when I'm staying in KL which is also my brother Kenneth's bestfriend and also my tripin' coach of futsal in KL. His name is Ezul. His super funny. Since in KL i don't have a computer, i borrowed his laptop. His songs are the long-time-ago but still in the trend sort of thing ? But still he has those songs like, Hotel Carlifornia by The Eagles,Love Me For A Reason by Boyzone. And today i got this sugar rush to hear this song. Im singing it everywhere and everytime. They're not hot but voice awesome also la. Top 3 gay list.

1. Boyzone
2. Backstreet Boys
3. Westlife

Anyway in school today. I came in class. I was so effing tired. My back still kinda hurts in the morning. So i sat on the table and lie down a lil while. Daryl was rubbing his tummy cause his sick. Poor him. Later part of the day i borrowed him my handphone to call Uncle Daryl. So he pick him up la. I sms in class again that. Teacher Don totally rocks. Haha. He even helped someone to hide the dude's phone. Went to training football today also. I played okay okay i guess ? But seriously, our team needs to pick up the tempo. Gosh we suck. How wanna go Pahang ? God help me XD

Aights Cheerios :DD
Oh and Peaches :)
Oh and Sushi :)

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so we meet again :D

I totally forgot about Jason Castro. Man i love his song. His one of those singers in American Idol that surely deserve a place. But for him 4th aint good enough. Chris Daughtry also. Like pity them this.

Anyway today in school i sleep for a while the usual. I studied man today. Amazingly. I gotta study eh. PMR is getting closer. So near that i could almost feel it. The marks that important this.

Parents-Teachers Day. Holy Crap I AM GOOD AS DEAD. I got number 37/45 in class. But my percentage aint that far. But still HOLY CRAP. WORST position ever ! Dadday will kill me. Mummay sad. Francis evil laugh only he know. Jonathan will devour me. Kenneth chillex la he wont do anything a lil advise would do.

Football Premier Labuan. Stupid oh the labuan-ers. The date got postpone again. More time to train. At least that's okay. 23rd JULY 2009. EFFING GANTUNG. POTONG STEAM BERABIS. Oh fuck. As long as we get to play i'm fine by it.

Francis intro me this game called Dead Frontier. Super gory and scary. Like woah. Zombies everywhere! Somemore we need to use the mouse to shoot and stuff and my mouse suck.

OH OH yeah. I played football just now. I was kicking kicking the ball as normally i would. Suddenly when Mummy B and Cheryle came back i stop. I sat for a while outside. I went inside My back hurts like hell + my side. Insanely that hurt a whole lot. I couldn't stand it but still sms sms this. Freak. Then like 15 minute later it got okay. I hope it doesn't continue.

Aights enjoy the song! sing along XD
Cheerios :D
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Somewhere Over The Rainbow Lyrics

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

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hello people again XD

So early early morning got tuition actually at 10.30am. I woke up at 9.45am. Mummy forgot to wake me up. I'm not a heavy sleeper but today dunno why. Maybe cause training football got me tired. So anyway,woke up,shower,brush teeth read newspaper. I only read sports section. Drink milo ngam ngam Patrick's car arrive. So went to tuition kinda bright face la. Can't get " She Left Me" song and " Livin' On A Prayer" song out of my head. I really really adore " Livin' On A Prayer " because it brings meaning to most people in their daily life. Well i guess i'm one of them. It kinda means to me that though everythings going down doensn't mean your like gonna be dead or hopeless. There is always hope. Of everything in the world, hope always dies last.

Make a wish tonight
Take me back to the nights of last summer
I come by 'round 9
I couldn't help but wonder
What's wrong, what's right?


You're falling hard, and you're taking me under
Baby, it's our time

I know they always say,
True love's gotta set her free.
And maybe I'll get lucky,
She'll come flyin' back to me.


I guess this fits it all. God i love my new football boots. Damn it's like with me everywhere now. I'm taking care of it Pops' dontcha worry old man.

Sometimes you know whenever you put your faith in the people that you care most ? But suddenly you get the feeling that that's the person you shouldn't be trusting at all ? Man i get that a lot. No matter how you try to avoid that awkardness it comes back. I guess there is always a first time. Oh and today i talk about Chris Daughtry with Francis. I still don't think he deserves to lose this. Stupid American Idol fans. Vote him bha ! Ish. Too late la.

09.07.09 is getting closer ! I'm kinda nervous. Gonna give my all.

Aight then Cheerios :DD

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hello bloggers.


Yesterday was so awesome man. I was so effing happy i got back hold of something. And when finish school i went to the car to put my bags and wood work too. I was staying back for football training. Suddenly when i reach the car, my mummy gave a a big surprise. At first i thought my brother came back again but it's consider good enough that they bought new football boots for me! Damn Predator XD. I love Mummay and Dadday. Then going to Labuan Football Premier! HOLY CRAP i love JULY. Awesomeness.


Today hmm today. HAHAHA. I live by today. I love today. I miss today. God i miss this day.
Besides that, i made my bm teacher pissed again cause' i was talking in class. Who doesnt' ? :p
Sometimes, when i look back and say " Great ! it's one of those days. " With this face -.- Like literally my eyes become " - " <--- . Holy crap i love this day so much oh ! Saturday gonna buy BOOTS again and baju hopefully. I'll be in Warisan ya'll.

LABUAN FOOTBALL PREMIER.
This year got chance this. Can win. I wanna go PAHANG ! Buahahaha XD

Aight people. wont be here next thurday. XD wish me luck :DD